Dear Diary,
It’s weird, I know, but for some reason, I am just so drawn to him. I find myself rushing through my chores, just for the chance to be around him a few moments longer. And when I am not around him, I am busy thinking about him and all of the things he has done. What am I ever to do? I can’t possibly feel like this for him, it is so shameful (right?) … and what of my family? They would never be okay with this… oh, my father, why can’t he look past the exterior of what he knows and trust what is inside of the being? … I feel like he cannot even trust me to know what is right and wrong, after all, he has spent a considerable amount of money having me “properly” educated, if that is what you would call it... But diary, it is almost as if my father just views me as another asset to his estate?
Dear Diary,
The dark, mysterious moor asked me to ELOPE today! AHHHH!!!! Oh my word!!!! what should I do? I love him, but I love my family also… I would never want to embarrass them so… but they would never agree to marriage with dearest Othello, no matter how fond of him they seem to be… How can I go with my gut, when it is my gut that is twisting and turning causing me to worry? How ever shall I know I have made the right decision?
Dear Diary,
Already my marriage has been called to the test of the public? Is this a sign? Did I make a mistake? AND ALREADY, my husband is away? Is this what I am to endure for the rest of my life – public opinion and an empty bed?
Wait! No! Stop! I must not think like this. I love Othello, and he loves me. Oh dearest diary, if only you could tell me what to do?
Dear Diary,
It is a terrible storm on the waters to Cyprus, I do pray that my husband is safe. Not only is the weather horrible, but I fear trouble is going to be stirred… There is something off about that Iago character that I am just not so sure about… Eh, I am sure it is just anxiety about Othello, I do worry about him so. Othello trusts Iago, so I must as well, I must obey Othello like the doting housewife, right?
[Note: I feel like if Desdemona is as young as everyone seems to say she is, then she would have kept a diary no? All the questions I raised for the diary to answer, are questions I jotted down in my margins of what I was feeling while reading]
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